ohmygod i just realized that the shot of Matthew in bed, right before he groggily sees mary in front of Downton, mirrors the shot of Lavinia right after she dies.  

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• I THINK I’M GOING TO BARF UP MY INTERNAL ORGANS
• CANT TPYE RN
• WHY IS ALL OF HTIS HAPPENING
• NO WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS WORLD 
• CANT EVERYTHING BE NICE RAINBOWS UNICORNS AND BUTTERFLIES WHY IS THIS THE WAY IT IS 
• PLEASE
• DONT
• NO
• DONT
• PLEASE
• STOP
• PELASE
• PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
• THIS IS THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANTED CANT SEE THROUGH MY TEARS CANT TYPE SHAKING TOO MUCH WHY OH WHY WHY
• WHYYYYYYYYYY
• BLOGGING FROM THE GRAVE
• NO
• NO
• NO
• PLEASE
• CRYING OUT ALL MY BODY FLUIDS
• THE LOOK ON JOHN’S FACE
• NO
• NO
• “IM A FAKE”
• CONVULSING
• WEEPING
• SCREAMING
• SHAKING
• PLEASE OHMYGOD NO CANT IT NOT END LIKE THIS 
• SHERLOCK STOP SAYING THESE THINGS 
• THIS IS NOT HAPPENING 
• IS THIS SOME SORT OF CRUEL DREAM OR SEOMETHING 
• NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
• PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET THIS NOT BE REAL
• PLEASE
• THIS HAS TO BE A PLOY OR SOMETHING THIS CANT BE THE TRTUH I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN RN 
• TEARS OF BLOOD ON MY FACE 
• THIS CAN’T BE REAL THIS ISN’T REAL THIS IS SOME CRUEL JOKE THERE IS A SEASON 3 SO THERE HAS TO BE MORE TO THIS I CAN’T STOP SHAKING AND CRYING I FEEL LIKE I SWALLOWED A BRICK 

i convinced my friend to watch Downton Abbey and she just finished the Christmas Special.  i am posting her thoughts for accuracy and awesomeness (includes spoilers): 

MY THOUGHTS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL BECAUSE IT’S WAY TOO LONG FOR A TEXT:
HOLY MY JESUS OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD
okay first of all mary playing charades was the best
and when isobel gave violet the nut cracker: “what is this?” “it’s a nut cracker. to crack your nuts.” best line.
and when anna opened her gift from mary, mary gave her that head nod and i died. i love their relationship.
sir anthony strallan??? hello welcome back!! i was so happy for edith in that moment. she was so happy!!! but then he was like sorry you have to give up on me now, i’m too old for you.
SYBIL’S PREGNANT OHMYGOD OHMYGOD. I GASPED.
AND I JUST WANT ANNA TO BE HAPPY.
I CAN DEFINITELY TELL THAT MATTHEW WANTS TO BE WITH MARY DURING THIS ENTIRE EPISODE. THEY BOTH KNOW IT.and carlisle was so jealous of them together. “why were you laughing at matthew?” I DESPISE THAT MAN. HE GRABS MARY’S ARM AND YANKS HER. HE NEEDS TO GO.
and matthew’s like you don’t have to marry him. LISTEN TO MATTHEW MARY.
and cora tells robert about mr. pamuk. OHMYGOD
OHMYGOD and when the jury found bates guilty, anna’s scream. ohmygod. no no no. i felt so incredibly awful for her.
AND EVEN THOUGH I HATE ROBERT, I LOVED IT WHEN HE WAS LIKE “YOU DON’T HAVE TO MARRY HIM” (referring to carlisle)
AND MATTHEW DOESN’T WANT MARY TO MARRY HIM EITHER 
AND THEN ANNA HANDS IN HER NOTICE
AND MARY TELLS MATTHEW ABOUT PAMUKKKK!!!! AHHH
matthew - “YOU MUST NOT MARRY HIM. YOU ARE STRONG.” AHH I LOVE HIM
“YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT ONE THING. I NEVER COULD DESPISE and where did isis go???…..just kidding found her!
finally daisy went to the farm…..AND IS WILLIAM’S FATHER’S DAUGHTER???
anna - “i have to leave downton. but i don’t have to leave you.” CUTEST RELATIONSHIP EVER
“i wish you would take my advice and fight for her.” YES ISOBEL YES
I HATE HATE HATE CARLISLE 
OHMYGOD CARLISLE AND MATTHEW’S FIGHT WOWOWOW GO MATTHEW GO
YES CARLISLE iS GONEEEE
YES BATES ISNT KILLED. JUST LIFE IN PRISON WHICH IS STILl AWFUL BUT STILL. YAYAYAY FOR ANNA! SHE’S STAYING AT DOWNTON
AHHH MATTHEW AND MARY ARE DANCING OHMYGOD SHE CAN’T LEAVE TO AMERICA SHE CAN’TT
“YOU’VE LIVED YOUR LIFE AND I’VE LIVED MINE. AND NOW IT’S TIME WE LIVED THEM TOGETHER.” HOLY OHMYGODDD WHAT IS HAPPENING WHAT IS HAPPENING
“THEN WILL YOU?.” “YOU MUST SAY IT PROPERLY.” OHMYGOD. MARY’S FACE. MATTHEW’S FACE. HIS SMIRK. OHMYGOD HE HAS TAKEN HER HANDS. LADY MARY CRAWLEY WILL YOU DO THE HONOR OF BECOMING MY WIFE. OHMYGOD. OHMYGOD SHOOOT THIS IS THE BEST THING EVR. AHHH MARY’S SMILING. HER SMILE IS SO GENUINE NOW!!!! I LOVE THIS OHMYGOD. THE SNOW IS FALLING DOWN PERFECTLY. AHH THEIR KISS OHMYGOD. PERFECT THING EVER. I LOVE THEM. OH HER COMES THE MUSIC. OH HERE COMES THE TEARS. AHHHH HE PICKED HER UP THEY ARE SPINNING. THEY ARE SO HAPPY. MY GOD. PERFECT ENDING TO A SEASON. WOWOW. YES YES YES THIS IS PERFECT. AHHHHHH I CAN’T WAIT UNTIL SEPTEMBER. OHMYGOD MARY AND MATTHEW CRAWLEY. ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

IT WAS AMAZING. I HAVE NEVER SEEN A BETTER ENDING TO AN EPISODE IN MY LIFE. I LOVE ANNA. I AM SO INCREDIBLY HAPPY FOR BOTH OF THEM. THEY ARE ACTUALLY GOING TO HAVE THE PERFECT LIFE. I LOVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP. AND HONESTLY, I HAD NO IDEA THAT THIS WAS COMING. IT WENT FROM A CASUAL CONVERSATION OUTSIDE IN THE PERFECT SNOW TO BE MY WIFE YOU MARY CRAWLEY YOU. AHHHH AND EVEN WHEN THE CAMERA MOVES OUT THEY ARE STILL SPINNING!!!!!!

so tempted to somehow make the audio of the mary and matthew engagement scene my ringtone